I am feeling depressed, sad, miserable, worthless, and I’ve been felling like this for a couple of days now, and this sucks. The worst part is that I know the source of my misery and I can’t do anything to change it, at least not if I want to eat and have a home. I am whining a lot about my job lately and I shouldn’t, because there are people in worst conditions that I am, but damn, this place is eating my happiness. My self esteem is lower that ever, I mean, you know what is like to be looking for a job for like three months now and all you are able to get is two interviews?, there has to be something wrong with me, right?, and I just feel, rejected.

Damn, I am 27 years old, and I have the wage of someone that just graduated from college, thank god I don’t have a family of my own or I would really be fucked up, I can barely take care of myself, financially speaking, so I couldn’t deal with a wife, a mortgage and a baby. This crap is affecting me so much, that I barely have the will to continue my masters degree, I feel unmotivated, but not just with college, with everything.

I know this is self pity, but fuck you, I need to get it out of my system, besides, no one wants to read a blog that is full of happiness, everyone want to read the misery of others so they can feel good about what they have. Let me be.

Bah, fuck this, I am going to eat some chocolate, that makes me feel better…