At last, Friday is here!

happy happy joy joy, happy happy joy joy!!
The best day of the week, I know it’s too early in the day to be saying it will be the best, but today I’ll get to see my sweet boyfriend and that’s enough to declare this a good day. Yesterday he went to my apartment because he was all worried about me being “depressed”, and that is just so sweet, he really cares about me and that’s why I love him so much.

He found out that I was “depressed” by reading this blog, maybe I exaggerated a little, maybe I gave the impression that I wanted to suicide or something, hell no!, I love my life!. I just use this space to vent out, to unfold my frustrations, that way I can, somehow, meditate about what is wrong with my life and change it. In the future, maybe in a couple of months, or years, I can look back at what I wrote and see how my life was at that moment and compare how I am doing at that time, that way I can measure how I have grown as a person, emotionally and professionally speaking.

Yesterday we spoke about a lot of things, but the most relevant one was that both of us wanted to marry, I mean, if he was a woman I surely would have asked to marry me a long time ago, but since we live in a shitty country that forbids same sex marriage we will have to move if we really wish to engage like that. But we are just getting to know each other, we’ve been together “unofficially” (since we started dating) for seven months now, and “officially” (since we became boyfriends) five months, from my point of view it looks like a lot of time, because he is my first boyfriend ever, and I hope the only one, but looking at the big picture of how relationships evolve, we are just starting to know and learning how to relate with each other.

He has seen my “dark side”, which is my constant mood swing, my jealousy, and my eternal need of attention, the eternal need of his caress. But so far he hasn’t complained about any of that, on the contrary, he is understanding and has lots of patience. To this day I haven’t seen his bad side, does he has one?, the only thing I complain is that we cant spend much time together, but that is not his fault. He is caring, loving, understanding, forgiving, smart, funny, a good friend, a somewhat good son (hehehe), damn, he is so good, sometimes I think that I don’t deserve him and that I am lucky to have him around.., no, not sometimes, I AM lucky to have YOU around.

Well, off to work, I want this day to run fast.

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