Ugh, I am getting tired of this, I wait a whole fucking week just to be able to spend some quality time with my BF, but when the weekend arrives I barely notice it because it’s already Monday morning!, and that annoys the hell out of me.  I know that I should have patience, and that everything will be better in some near future, and yadda yadda yadda, but I have always been waiting for a better future, ever since I was in college, always waiting for something better for the long run and I always got disappointed at the end, either because the wait was not worth it or because the waiting took so long that I just lost interest.  I mean, at some point during the long wait you just start wondering and realizing that waiting a better thing for the future is not the solution, the solution is to fix the things that are broken on the present time and THEN set goals for the near future.

I don’t know, maybe I am too needed for affection that I need constant reassurance of love.  Ironically, when there’s something I can’t get because it’s just not possible for any given reason, I just back off and leave it alone.  Sadly, I always lose interest short before backing off, but if I want to be happy now, if I want to loose the tensions and the worryness, I should start backing off…

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On to other things, this last Saturday we went cruising around to take some pictures of Old San Juan, I know, I know, it’s a cliché place to be taking pictures, but fuck it, I enjoyed it a lot.  Feel free to criticize me, that way I can learn.

This week is “La Semana Mayor”, “Semana Santa”, the “Holy Week”, or how gringos call it, SPRING BREAK!, YEAH!!…, well, I have to work until Wednesday, but I am going to get “sick” that day, I know they are going to say something, but I don’t give a fuck, bah, two years and no vacations so I can take any day I want no questions asked.  I plan to take my camera out on those five days, I don’t know, maybe to the beach, to my hometown…, hmmm, yeah, I should go there, its been like six months since the last time I went there, I have to take some pictures of my mom, dad, grandma, etc, etc, etc.

Got to go, these mofo’s are going to evaluate my job performance for the last year…, again…, bah.

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