I am an uncle²!!!

Monday, December 12, 2005 @ 10:00 am by DarK SouL

Last Friday at 11:00PM was born my new niece and she is so fucking cute!!!, I hope to have a Picture of her sometime during the week so sit tight. 

That baby awakened my “fatherhood” feelings and made me realize that I do want to have a family, maybe not now, but in the not-so-distant future, like in 5 or 10 years, but that is one experience that I want to have.  Take note, I am not saying that I will become an ex-gay or anything like that but, I don’t either know how I am going to do it.  My current BF has stated several times that he doesn’t want, or like children so that is something that we will have to fix if we are still together by then.  Other thing is that I don’t want to adopt, I want a biological son/daughter so I might have to rent a surrogate mother or something like that.  This might be one of those selfish things that one does to feel “complete” without any real reason but I have always wanted to be a father, in fact, that was the reason that I stayed in the closet for so long, I wanted to have a family first, but I knew that at some point in my relationship with a woman I would betray her for some hot cock and that is something my conscience couldn’t hold for long.

Fatherhood is one of the things that I wish I can experience before I die, and I will even if I have to rape someone!!!